I just smiled. I can't quite believe it. A smile. Small but genuine. A little self conscious but real. And on MY face. :) There wasn't a mirror so I didn't see it and I didn't have my camera to catch it but it was there. I felt it. Little victories are victories all the same and they should be celebrated. YAY for me!! This depression has been winning long enough.
After visiting doctors, shrinks and psychologigists I have come to the conclusion that the key to this is me. It is I who needs to be my own catalyst, my own inspiration and my own role model. This, makes the depressed me shrink. It seems like a lot of pressure to put on myself..To become a Hero overnight. Wouldn't it be great if I could though?
Wouldn't it be wonderful if you could walk into your own engine room and set a course for 'The Very Best I Can Be'? Don't argue. It really would be. :) I like this thought very much.